urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter dadvilsdaughter dadvilsdaughter 2006-06-27T09:42:31Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:9149 2006-06-27T09:42:31Z 2006-06-27T09:42:31Z how can one person ever distinguish <br />whether another person is lying to them or not<br />Now i know somepoeple would say you just have to trust and believe them<br />how you have to take the risk<br /><br />But what if the person <br />is hurting still vulnerable<br />cannot and would not take the risk until she know if the other person <br />is trust worthy<br /><br />life is so confusing as it is<br />why is it necessary for people to lie<br />why is it so hard to trust and believe anyone at all<br /><br />confusing as it is <br />i kno im not making sense<br /><br />trust is something i cant give at the moment<br />to anyone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:8684 2006-05-26T09:02:11Z 2006-05-26T09:02:11Z I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams.<br /><br />I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears.<br /><br />I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on wearing sweats and a big t-shirt.<br /><br />I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to.<br /><br />I'm the guy who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.<br /><br />I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead.<br /><br />I'm the guy who doesnt kiss and tell.<br /><br />I'm the guy who actually listens to you when you talk.<br /><br />I'm the guy who's excited all day because im looking forward to our date that night.<br /><br />I'm the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more.<br /><br />I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room.<br /><br />I'm the guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.<br /><br />I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with.<br /><br />I'm the guy who gets butterflies when he hears your name.<br /><br />I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends he loves you.<br /><br />I'm the guy who doesn't care about your imperfections and loves you more for them.<br /><br />I'm the guy who will hold you while we watch the sunset.<br /><br />I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:8281 2006-05-26T08:30:46Z 2006-05-26T08:30:46Z i am a woman<br />first and foremost<br /><br />i demand alot of things....<br />as all guys would know<br /><br />I demand<br />attention<br />patients<br />gifts<br /><br /><br />as a person<br /><br />I want<br />happiness<br />understanding<br />family<br />friends<br />children<br /><br /><br />as a human being<br />I need<br />love<br />I NEED YOU! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:8007 2006-05-26T08:24:45Z 2006-05-26T10:20:33Z Truth:<br /><br />I "like" MM , but I "want" DG<br />Problem?? I dont really know if their interested.<br /><br />I want to have a boyfriend, but i dont think im ready for a relationship.<br /><br />MM seems to be a good candidate for that but unfortunately i dont think his serious about liking me. He hasnt really ask me out on an official date. But he gets high points in my list.<br />Im a little concerned tho cos he like to drink alot... hmmm<br /><br />*sign* Why are guys so clueless? What does a girl have to do for men to get the point?<br /><br />DG on the other hand I would never get with. (as if he likes me right? hehehe)<br />It would never last. Just a fling. His a player.<br />I dont think he would take a relationship seriously. Thought i admit the temptation is there.<br />I just wanna f**k him, get the attraction out, and be done with it.<br /><br />AH!!!! but why am i worrying? I dont even kno if they like me or just playin with me<br /><br />life sux!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:7866 2006-02-23T06:11:48Z 2006-02-23T06:11:48Z ok here are sum advise for those who date<br /><br />PLS PLS dont lead on ppl <br />if u dont like them, or if ur just using them<br />let them know or atleast dont promise a future<br />blah blah blah<br /><br />DO NOT give them hope <br />it's NOT jsut mean<br />it is pure evilness<br /><br />i think its enough the person kno that they've been used<br />but the fact that u give them hope is not right<br /><br />and for those who have been "used"<br />i say use them n leave them<br />dont worry there are more men/women out there <br />who are ALOT better in sex.. *wink wink*<br />n who are much much nicer<br />but dont be naive n e more<br /><br />dont let them use u<br />dont believe in everything they say<br /><br />oh if ppls who are reading this wondering y<br />im saying this<br />well yes i hab been used<br />i just wanna take my frustration out<br />n advice ppl on how NOT to get hurt.<br /><br />if i sound bitter sorrie but i dont really care urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:7536 2006-02-23T06:05:32Z 2006-02-23T06:05:32Z ok here the thing. <br />about a week ago (Valentine's day) i went out with sum1<br />he was nice, gentleman n everything<br />he cooked me sumtin<br /><br />Sumtin happen that shouldnot<br />im not ganna emphasize on what<br /><br />n e who... at first i was reluctant but ok<br />since he was nice<br />we went out again<br />starbucks nothing big<br /><br />He thought me how to play poker,<br />it was actually nice<br /><br /><br />problem: im starting to like him<br />but im not sure he really like's me <br />etc<br /><br />confused is how i feel at the moment<br />he might be using me<br />*sign* oh well<br />i knew i shouldnt hab start liking him<br />just... s..x<br />damn i knew it...<br /><br />oh well urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:7318 2006-02-20T08:57:34Z 2006-02-20T08:57:34Z ok here the thing....<br />so i know nate has a gf...<br />im happie for him<br /><br />but i think i under estamated how much i like him<br /><br />i cant see them together...<br />not that im goin to<br />coz now i dotn even talk to him n e more<br /><br /><br />so last v day was his Bday<br />i wished him well<br /><br />lookin at him at myspace with her <br />i cant do it....<br /><br />even knowing der was never n e tin between us and will never will ever have n e tin between us... i just cant do it<br /><br />i love him urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:6997 2006-02-20T08:51:13Z 2006-02-20T08:51:13Z der is a sense of loss<br />that i feel deep in my heart!<br />like something vital has been ripped out of me!<br /><br />im looking thru old pic<br />n i see something<br />i should have done<br /><br />i should have taken the risk<br />it was worth it<br />i should have believed in my self<br />if not me then him<br /><br />BUT now i have to wait<br />I cant go back to the past<br />now i have to look into the unknown future<br />and hope<br /><br />someday....<br /><br />dis sense of loss will never go away...<br />god i hop....<br />i cant do this urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:6776 2005-12-26T10:38:25Z 2005-12-26T10:38:25Z ok yesterday was interesting.<br />went 2 SD 4 xmas.<br />didnt get n e tin 4 xmas tho except J2 anime, charm dvd, and a sock.<br />hmmmm<br />its kool though.... i got to relax for a whole day.... finally<br /><br />complicated life....<br />should i say yes?<br />should i go out with him? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:6485 2005-11-28T08:19:03Z 2005-11-28T08:19:03Z i dont know y but i think god is angry at me....<br />today has been harsh on me.... <br />first i start liking a guy who i CANNOT like bcoz his my friends X<br />then joeys parents went to work to buy some stuff, oh yeah joey was there too...<br />ackward! he tried to be polite.... ehhh <br />weird! he actually tried having a poite conversation, when all i wanted for him to do was go away! <br />my sisters are mad at me... dont ask me y i really dont know<br />y is it everythign i want i cant hab<br />damn!!!!<br />i hate life<br /><br />complicated urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:6151 2005-11-25T08:24:08Z 2005-11-25T08:24:08Z my god thanxgiving dis yr is very different!<br />WE actually COOK well to be exact BAKED things... hehehe and it actually turned out gud!!!<br />man that was a surprise!!!<br /><br />im here in SD right now, n my aunti n uncle are singing... man.... no comment lol<br />its 12 n der still goin strong lol<br /><br />im still hungry!!!<br />i work 2moro at 430am until 1015 at nite...<br />16 hour shift ith 2 hours of lunch... sleep!!!!<br />well cya guys later majesty wants to barrow the comp n she wont leave me alone!!!!<br /><br />bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:6035 2005-11-17T19:31:20Z 2005-11-17T19:31:20Z well the other day i found out that nate now has a gf... so like aww... dat hurt... tear my heart into peaces kind of thing.<br />i feel sad...<br />yet happy for him,.... he found someone<br />:) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:5801 2005-11-17T18:57:28Z 2005-11-17T18:57:28Z let me c... life sux!!!<br />my kneee is doing alright, my shoulder pain has become the whole arm pain, den my back is hurting too... ah!!!! <br />life sux...<br />im sleepy... yesterday was weird.<br />ok i woke up at 12 pm then i went to my theraphy at 330 which by the way is the cause of my whole arm hurting. then went to my moms work to wait for ma sis to go home... she's a bitch by the way. we got home around 530. after dat we watch tv, n i fell asleep probably around 7 didnt woke up again until 12, den went back to sleep around 2 didnt wake up until 7 again... now sleepy again...<br />i feel so tierd dont kno y... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:5585 2005-11-13T02:24:32Z 2005-11-13T02:24:32Z I got into a car accident 2day...<br />I think their goin to total my car...<br /><br />God im so sorrie!!!!<br />i just dropped off my mom from work<br />got back into the streets, got into the freeway,<br />there was traffic<br />so i went into the car pool lane alone<br />the truck was so far away i thought i could get in<br />so i went into the carpool lane, press on the gas<br />then the next thing i know<br />i heard his screeching of his tires<br />then he hit me<br /><br />all i could think about was "im in so much trouble:"<br />my car was still running, i got out of the carpool lane somehow n i thought<br />that i might get someone else into an accident so i went back into the carpool lane, hit the divider until my car stopped.<br /><br />i was in shock... my whole body was shaking<br />i knew i need to cry it out, but the tears wouldnt come<br />i wanted to call my mom but i 4got my cell at home<br />i didnt know what else to do<br /><br />a guy stopped in front of my car<br />i think he called the police<br />then ask if i was ok<br />said yeah, asked if i was hurting n e where, said no at the time<br />i asked him if i could barrow his cell to call my mom<br />but he seem reluctant<br />then he went to the other persons car to see how they wer<br />they wer ok, dad n son (10 yrs old or older)<br /><br />They seems so nice, im sorrie for wat i did......<br />they had to tow his car<br />all i could think about is that i cause so much trouble for my parents<br />n for them<br />im sorry<br /><br />the dad accually let me barrow his cell to call my mom<br />that when i started crying.<br />the police told me to stand up sit in my car<br />n when he tells me drive my car to the side<br />i did.<br />he asked me what happened<br />then my sister came<br />i told them what happened<br />i went into the car pool lane, he asked about the speed, i told him i think 40<br />the police got my drivers licence, insurance card, and registration<br />then after that he let ma sis tlk to me<br /><br />i just cried,<br />they asked if i wanted to haw my car towed somewer but i didnt realy care<br />my dad came<br />i went to the hospital to hab my knee check out.<br />it was ok<br />i saw my mom<br />i cried some more<br /><br />ate mshell came n picked my up, went home.<br /><br />IM SO SORRY! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:5146 2005-11-08T19:50:19Z 2005-11-08T19:50:19Z man halloween was kool... i know im 2 late 2 write about it but like i just dont hab da time n e more to write here... my only time is when i go to my computer class...<br />n e who... i went to work as a punker school grl... u kno the whole thng... knee hign boots, miny school skirt... i even hab the authentic catholic school tie frm ate mshell...<br />it was kool... embarrasing too... <br />it was like 1 min before i get off work... i asked ellen to gib me more candy, i reached over to get some... n my skirt went up SHOWING MY BUTT to chastity n andy... it was so embarassing........ ah!!!!!<br />i just wanted to run n hide, n never comeout..... i think. NO! im pretty sure that i turned red... this was one of those halloween u can never for get. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:4966 2005-10-20T18:25:42Z 2005-10-20T18:25:42Z <center> <table bgcolor="gray" cellspacing="0" border="2"><tr> <td><table cellpadding="2" cellspacing="0" border="0"><tr><td align="center"> <font face="arial" size="-1">This site is a member of WebRing. <br>To browse visit <a href="http://ss.webring.com/navbar?f=l;y=dadvilsdaughter;u=defurl"> Here</a>.</font></td></tr></table></td></tr></table> </center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:4638 2005-10-20T18:17:20Z 2005-10-20T18:17:20Z I watched this Japanese Drama the other day n i tell you i cried like hell....<br />It was such a good show....<br />this is what you call drama... i hate people who made this show... made me cry like a baby.<br />Dis show is about 5 people... its so sad... i cant think about it without like feeling sad<br />man i wish this doesnt happen to me... but i wished it would.. i dont know if you understand me<br />but if u watch this show you will.... i dont want it to happen to be because what they went through was tough but i want it to happen to me cuz they have this wonderful very meaningful love... i dont know how to explain it but<br />i tell you if i rate this show from 1-10 i give it a 20.<br />4 thumbs way up... :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:4540 2005-10-04T02:24:53Z 2005-10-04T02:24:53Z I think its wrong that im having so much fun updating n changing stuff here at livejournal....<br />and myspace... for the past 2=3 days all i did was update my myspace n livejournal... hope you guys like it<br /><br />well things didnt turn out rite dis past weel... first my aunt died (my dad's cousins wife) and then a couple days later my friend from PI died too.<br />Then im always late for work n my superior told me to stop being late.... got in trouble.... :(<br />Then test at school....<br />oh yeah i still dont know if i still qualified for ma fafsa...<br /><br />well last sat.. i had to go to the wake of my aunt...<br />i tell u im never looking at a dead person again... i felt like i wanted to throw up...<br />her hand n face look so fake... den u could see the bruises frm da IV in her arms...<br />Then ders a small wind dat pass by n i tell u dat wasnt pleasant...<br />i dont wanna be rude... but I HATE DEAD PEOPLE!!!!<br />im scared n grossed out.<br /><br />well my parents 25th wedding anniversary was on sat too but we celebrated on sun.<br />we went to tonny ramas... my parents wanted ribs.......<br />food der was ok... not the best just ok<br /><br />well g2g im downloading POT!!!!<br />bleach rock! <br />DSL rule!!! finally got one hahahaha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:4122 2005-09-20T18:45:41Z 2005-09-20T18:45:41Z Crap!!!!! i habnt written here since i duno.. i always get cut off... well im in ma IS 233 class again... i think i had 2 much coffee... i feel sick... light headed... who ever introduce coffee 2 me its all ur fault.<br />well school sucks right now... i read but like i don wanna.<br />well nothing new to me... sam as always... school, work, n home..<br />go out every friday....<br />oh yeah JUST LIKE HEAVEN is such a good movie so cute.... i recommend it.<br />damn i need to go Pee rite now... don wanna go though... 2 lazy...<br />okie ummm<br />wat to talk about.... oh yeah im watching samurai deeper kyo...<br />i love it... alot of fighting n it funny.... kool..<br />nice graphics. im ganna buy the box set.<br />my friend has azu manga dayo but like i habnt watched it... hope its good. im ganna barrow it.<br />well g2g prof approaching me again.. bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:4045 2005-09-13T14:53:50Z 2005-10-04T01:42:49Z HEYLOE!!!!<br />man been a while since i wrote on this.... bz bz bz.. well not really just kinda lazy...<br />well catalina vacation came n went... (im sad) :( school of course has started... i still don kno if im getting fininal aid... but dey habnt billed me so like i tink dats a gud sign. hehehehe<br />while i was at catalina u painted dis... hope u guys like it.<br /><img src="http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b384/dadvilsdaughter/myspace/flower2.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:3802 2005-08-27T07:38:44Z 2005-08-30T17:58:28Z Man i really cant wait till sept 3. one more week. thank god!<br />Catalina here i com.... man i cant wait! ummm here im good! i finished my art! its posted on myspace.<br />i think i might post it on friendster.<br />i wish i hab one of dos good scanner so ca-pture the angle i want.<br />n e who... im continuing dis msg (2day is 8-30-05) im in ma IS233 class... no instructor yet. not sure i can use da comp but who cares. <br />well the whole half day has passed n gone n im still in a gif. I dont kno if my financial aid is goin to cover me dis sem since i failed my classes last sem. man i hate dis i dont kno what to do. wer am i ganna get at least $2000. life sucks!!! <br />well i g2g da instructor is here! ah!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:3417 2005-08-20T10:04:33Z 2005-08-20T10:04:33Z Well its been a while since I wrote here... ummm sorrie but ma mom has been on da phone after she goes hme frm work n dats da only tme i can go online. DAMN i need DSL... hehehe<br />ok well ate mshell bday has passed. its was a wow party... jk i fell asleep.<br />2day we went ice skating. man im tierd, my legs hurt. nate was suppose to com but he didnt... disappointed! hmmm<br />we went 2 watch RED EYE. it was so nice... talk about suspence... scary! i would talk bout it more but i dont wanna ruin it for ppl.<br />2 more weeks n wer of 2 catalina isl. man! i cant wait! i can imagine it now. nice beach, nice place, alot of shopping, n ice cream. Nice, cute guys... hehehe jk<br />couple of days ago i went shopping... i bought 5 skirts, 4 top,a shoe n 3 victoria secret underwer all under $150. Man i love shopping hehehe.<br />BAD NEWs!!!! my cellphone is broken... meh...... (crying) i turned it on dis morning n all i see is a white blank.... *sign* but no worrie tmobile is sending me a new one in 5days...<br />oh yeah b4 i 4get i failed my test for a B of A employement test. (sad) but its kool<br />well heres another story.<br />a couple of days ago my X's gf called me to ask me if i hab my X's wallet. I told her no. (i was surprise she called, i mean y would i hab his wallet. We broke up like wat? 2 months ago? how long does it take for a person to realize his wallet is missing? 2 months? man) n e ways... i emailed him through myspace n asked him y his gf n his sis thnks i hab his wallet. n guess wat... da bastard called me a bitch. n said dat i hab better hab not given his gf an attitude.<br />i was like WTF? wat da hell is wrong with him? i jsut wanted to kno y shit its not like im askin a question dat his life depended on. <br />i emailed him back telling him his an asshole, coz he doesnt need to call me a bitch. den his gf emailed me askin y called her bf an asshole, den she told me dat i had better get over wat he did. i told her i WAS over it. i just wanted to kno y dey think i had his wallet. <br />well we emailed back n forth. she told me dat she doesnt want to get dis thing bigger. i was like im not making dis small thing into a big thing. dey wer. i jsut asked a small simple question dat he could answer with "i duno." was dat so hard?<br />n e who... apparently i gave her an attitude when she called me... i said sori if i didnt even though i kno i didnt gib her an attitude. i just don wanna make dis stupid thing bigger. well i hope dis thing is over. so i dont hab to talk to dem again.<br />i really thought we could hab been at least friends.<br />i think its not joey who emailed me. i think it was her. but we'll never kno. <br />i think she called me to make sure i habnt seen him while der 2geder. its not like i would i mean da guy cheated on me. who would take dat kind of a person back?<br />once a cheater always a cheater.<br />well for a better mood..... SCHOOL IS ABOUT TO START AUG 29. wait dats not a better mood... no!!!!!!!! hehehe school beware MELODY IS BACK... lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:3228 2005-08-02T06:59:57Z 2005-10-03T09:33:58Z Look what I did last nite... im so proud... <br /><br /><img src="http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b384/dadvilsdaughter/myspace/bluerose.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /><img src="http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b384/dadvilsdaughter/myspace/DSC02052.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:3018 2005-08-02T06:36:39Z 2005-08-30T18:02:32Z I feel like im closed up in a prison<br />Deep in a whole so dark I forgot how light looks like<br />Deep in a maze, I cannot find a way out<br />I feel like I am in a cofin, six feet deep.<br />I feel like I am dead n no one cares<br /><br />Deep within me I yearn to get out of this prison<br />Yet I cannot seem to find da light in dis darkness<br />I cannot find the path towards the end<br />And I cannot climb out of my grave.<br />I yearn to feel alive again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dadvilsdaughter:2631 2005-08-02T06:35:28Z 2005-08-02T06:35:28Z I just finished watching Stigmata again. Man is dat show trippy or wat? Imagine if ur 2 religious u get stigmata or if ur not religious ur goin to hell man… its not like u hab a choince n e more… Im not sure I believe in religion… I kno its der but I don’t think its 4 me. I kno I always turn 2 him when ever I need him, but I don think I can really believe in him until I see n touch Him.<br /><br />N e ways, me n ma ate watched stealth. Man love dat movie. Well actually I LOVE Josh lucas… He is SUPER HOT HOT HOT… lol…. His blue eyes makes me fall 4 him. Nice body 2... Hehehe<br /><br />Im a little depress 2day. 1st coz I just got my period. BLAH! Cramps n ma back hurts<br />2nd coz im lonely… I need a man… lol… nah just need more friends 2 talk 2.<br />3rd coz ma parents r back frm PNAS<br />4th coz my bills r comin up<br />5th coz I failed all my classes last sem. don’t kno if im goin back 2 school<br /><br />Well dats all I can think about now. But ders probably more<br />Oh yea ders work 2moro. Probably church 2. CRAP!!!