LoSeRViLLe

how can one person ever distinguish
whether another person is lying to them or not
Now i know somepoeple would say you just have to trust and believe them
how you have to take the risk

But what if the person
is hurting still vulnerable
cannot and would not take the risk until she know if the other person
is trust worthy

life is so confusing as it is
why is it necessary for people to lie
why is it so hard to trust and believe anyone at all

confusing as it is
i kno im not making sense

trust is something i cant give at the moment
to anyone

I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams.

I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears.

I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on wearing sweats and a big t-shirt.

I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to.

I'm the guy who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.

I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead.

I'm the guy who doesnt kiss and tell.

I'm the guy who actually listens to you when you talk.

I'm the guy who's excited all day because im looking forward to our date that night.

I'm the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more.

I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room.

I'm the guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.

I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with.

I'm the guy who gets butterflies when he hears your name.

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends he loves you.

I'm the guy who doesn't care about your imperfections and loves you more for them.

I'm the guy who will hold you while we watch the sunset.

I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

i am a woman
first and foremost

i demand alot of things....
as all guys would know

I demand
attention
patients
gifts


as a person

I want
happiness
understanding
family
friends
children


as a human being
I need
love
I NEED YOU!

Truth:

I "like" MM , but I "want" DG
Problem?? I dont really know if their interested.

I want to have a boyfriend, but i dont think im ready for a relationship.

MM seems to be a good candidate for that but unfortunately i dont think his serious about liking me. He hasnt really ask me out on an official date. But he gets high points in my list.
Im a little concerned tho cos he like to drink alot... hmmm

*sign* Why are guys so clueless? What does a girl have to do for men to get the point?

DG on the other hand I would never get with. (as if he likes me right? hehehe)
It would never last. Just a fling. His a player.
I dont think he would take a relationship seriously. Thought i admit the temptation is there.
I just wanna f**k him, get the attraction out, and be done with it.

AH!!!! but why am i worrying? I dont even kno if they like me or just playin with me

life sux!!!

ok here are sum advise for those who date

PLS PLS dont lead on ppl
if u dont like them, or if ur just using them
let them know or atleast dont promise a future
blah blah blah

DO NOT give them hope
it's NOT jsut mean
it is pure evilness

i think its enough the person kno that they've been used
but the fact that u give them hope is not right

and for those who have been "used"
i say use them n leave them
dont worry there are more men/women out there
who are ALOT better in sex.. *wink wink*
n who are much much nicer
but dont be naive n e more

dont let them use u
dont believe in everything they say

oh if ppls who are reading this wondering y
im saying this
well yes i hab been used
i just wanna take my frustration out
n advice ppl on how NOT to get hurt.

if i sound bitter sorrie but i dont really care

ok here the thing.
about a week ago (Valentine's day) i went out with sum1
he was nice, gentleman n everything
he cooked me sumtin

Sumtin happen that shouldnot
im not ganna emphasize on what

n e who... at first i was reluctant but ok
since he was nice
we went out again
starbucks nothing big

He thought me how to play poker,
it was actually nice


problem: im starting to like him
but im not sure he really like's me
etc

confused is how i feel at the moment
he might be using me
*sign* oh well
i knew i shouldnt hab start liking him
just... s..x
damn i knew it...

oh well

ok here the thing....
so i know nate has a gf...
im happie for him

but i think i under estamated how much i like him

i cant see them together...
not that im goin to
coz now i dotn even talk to him n e more


so last v day was his Bday
i wished him well

lookin at him at myspace with her
i cant do it....

even knowing der was never n e tin between us and will never will ever have n e tin between us... i just cant do it

i love him

der is a sense of loss
that i feel deep in my heart!
like something vital has been ripped out of me!

im looking thru old pic
n i see something
i should have done

i should have taken the risk
it was worth it
i should have believed in my self
if not me then him

BUT now i have to wait
I cant go back to the past
now i have to look into the unknown future
and hope

someday....

dis sense of loss will never go away...
god i hop....
i cant do this

ok yesterday was interesting.
went 2 SD 4 xmas.
didnt get n e tin 4 xmas tho except J2 anime, charm dvd, and a sock.
hmmmm
its kool though.... i got to relax for a whole day.... finally

complicated life....
should i say yes?
should i go out with him?

i dont know y but i think god is angry at me....
today has been harsh on me....
first i start liking a guy who i CANNOT like bcoz his my friends X
then joeys parents went to work to buy some stuff, oh yeah joey was there too...
ackward! he tried to be polite.... ehhh
weird! he actually tried having a poite conversation, when all i wanted for him to do was go away!
my sisters are mad at me... dont ask me y i really dont know
y is it everythign i want i cant hab
damn!!!!
i hate life

complicated